Baptism | Hannah Vos

Baptism | Hannah Vos

November 14, 2021 |

What was life like before you met Jesus?

Before I met Jesus, I was searching for satisfaction everywhere possible. I was searching for it within people, social media, school, and so much more. I needed to feel loved all the time and supported by people no matter what. I was lacking the true understanding of the forgiveness and salvation of Jesus in my heart. I was always performing, trying to achieve so many things, and get myself on "right-standing" with God. It always left me feeling empty and trying for more. Growing up, I grew up in a Christian household, went to church, and only read my Bible during the service. I never actually applied it to my life or tried to build a better relationship with Jesus. I went through a lot of hardships and with that, I always felt Jesus was distant and didn't care about me. I believed he would help and heal others around me, but I never believed the same thing for myself. This led to a lot of anger and frustration towards Jesus that were never meant to be there in the first place. I felt as though I needed to "one-up" myself with God and try to be an overachiever with perfect grades, perfect performances on or off stage, never failing at anything in life. I thought this would make me feel better. I thought it would make Jesus and my friends and family proud of me. I believed this life was a competition to be the perfect person in every aspect of my life. This life I was living always left me feeling empty and never being satisfied.

How did you meet Jesus?

I always knew about Jesus. I grew up hearing Bible stories but never understood any teachings or passages in my heart. I attended a Salt Company Fall Retreat where Jesus opened my heart and showed me that I am forgiven. I began doing devotions daily and found myself wanting to get to know Jesus more. I thought I was already saved and didn't need to work on my relationship with Jesus but my heart was softened during these devotions and prayer. I began to see where I had never let Jesus in, where I held so tight onto control and never wanted to trust that he would take my burdens and sins. While I felt my heart softening towards many aspects of my life and letting go of control, Jesus met me during a sermon at Salt Company on October 8, 2021. The sermon was on a passage in John 3 where Jesus talked to Nicodemus about being born again and having salvation. He showed me that all of my sins and the "perfect" life I was trying to live was already taken up to the cross and I no longer had to be that person. He showed me that I am forgiven. I found myself wanting to have eternal life like everyone else. I wanted to understand that he gave up his one and only son so I could have eternal life. I opened to 2 Corinthians 5, where it says "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!" This was the moment I realized my past doesn't define me, Jesus paid the price of all my sins. I realized how much of a broken person I am without Jesus and in need of a savior who still showed me grace while I rejected him multiple times. He showed me the forgiveness and love he has for me and everyone else around me. He showed that I am made new in Christ, the old is gone, the new has come.

After being saved by Jesus what is your life like now?

After being saved, I no longer long to find my identity in things of this world that leave me empty every single time. Jesus has continually shown me that I can trust him in every aspect of my life and that he never leaves me in any circumstance. Though life may be hard sometimes, I know trusting him is so much better than anything that the world could offer. I know my past does not define me and I am clean through Christ. Knowing that my sins are forgiven humbles me to repent daily of the ways I don’t let him into my life. He keeps teaching me through the Bible how to grow closer in relationship with him. My life is no longer built on living a "perfect" life and people pleasing, but on the identity of a perfect and Holy savior who saved me so I could have eternal life. One of my favorite verses shows me the grace and mercy of Jesus in which we did not deserve, yet he gave it to us fully to have eternal life. "But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions–it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus." Ephesians 2: 4-6.